My first zine……

I’ve been creating for a while now and  I felt that I need something tangible. Something that would allow me to push myself further in my work. There’s nothing better than seeing  your work printed. You can also learn so much through printing. All the flaws, every little thing that you may have missed, everything is revealed.

For that reason I really exited to announce my first self- published Zine. A small collection of my recent work. It is a collection of some my favourite images. It is the first big step that I’ve taken since I’ve started on this journey.

This particular zine took about 4 months to put together. Images, design and everything have been put together by myself then came the proofing to find the right paper to use for the images.

It is a 40 page A4 zine printed right here in the UK. I’ve only printed a limited amount of 150 copies to be purchased and it would truly mean a lot if you can purchase a copy. It is now available to order. Kindly email me at pamela.aminou@gmail.com your interest.

Thank you all for your support!!!

 

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Photography and mortality

I’ve recently started to read a photographer named Eric Kim’s blog and I came across one of his articles on why we photograph?

Eric mentioned that “Photography is a meditation on mortality. Whoever we photograph will eventually die. And we will eventually die. We seek immortality through making photos.” This got me thinking on whether it is true.

I certainly agree that it is a meditation for me but I haven’t thought as far as my mortality as yet. But I’ve come to agree with his point of view. We will all eventually die, and what we create will eventually be our legacy. We are all familiar with photography Masters. Why do we consider them masters and why do we love their work?

We consider as such because they are the master of their field and we love their work because it is unique to the individual which is what I love. You can see the difference between Henri Cartier-Bresson images and that of Brassaï. Their strive to be themselves and tell their own stories which make them personal.

Late last year, I was reminded of how much life is short and I promised myself to make the most of everyday. This reminder pushes me to be a little more personal in my work and to create whenever possible. Maybe it is my way to subconsciously deal with my mortality.

Why do you you photograph?

 

 

 

 

Film rolls – British museum London

Since I decided to improve my film images too I’ve decided to share with you images from my third roll of 35mm. At the moment, I’m using HP5, simply because it is what was recommended to me. But I have also purchased the Kodak Tri X which is quite pricey but then again it might because I purchase it individually.

I’m only sharing the third roll as there were no results from the second roll I’ve shot and I was really disappointed as there were a few images that I would have loved to have come out.

These images were taken using the sunny 16 rule as I decided to ditch the light meter App on my phone. I didn’t expect any results from the rolls but my instincts seem to have paid off.

Below are the images scanned and unedited.

 

 

What is your camera to you?

When you first start on your photographic journey, you buy every magazine on the market with the How to quick guides……. We are taught that it is a good thing to learn but we are not taught to filter things.

I’ve bought many of those magazines and i still have plenty of them. However, one how to guide is followed by gear reviews along with many camera, tripods, camera bag advertisements. We all know that’s how the magazine makes money. My point is that you are almost programmed to be a gear hoarder. Ever noticed the gear list of every photographer featured? Almost making you feel as though if you do not have that particular camera you will not achieve that image.

I must say, I fell for it and believed it.

I started with a Nikon D40 and I still love a few images (I was only beginning) I created with that. As soon as I started, all I wanted was a full frame camera. Let’s be honest, I didn’t even know if I really needed it or it was going to do. However, I did keep keep the camera for few years until the shutter failed and needed replacement. The replacement would have costed me more than the camera so I chose to upgrade to a D90. The shutter failed within a week on that one too but couldn’t get it replaced as Nikon stopped production. I finally chose to upgrade to a Canon 5D. I’ve had this camera for now 3 years and I’m very.

Is it all I hoped for but I took the time to learn everything this camera can do. It now feels like an extended part of me. Would I upgrade again? No. Would upgrading can what I’m creating? No it will not.

I’ve come to learn that creating is about what is within me, what I’m trying to say and just as painters chose to use a canvas, I chose to use a camera.

How many new cameras have hit the market within the last year? The Sony A9, Canon 5D mark IV just to name a few. Would I pick them up, I have no desire to.

My desire is to a more confident with my work and learn to express myself better and my camera is just the tool that will help me achieve my goal.

What is your camera to you?

 

 

Money isn’t everything……….

Some of you might know that my photography journey as a way to deal with stress during my undergraduate degree. Once I completed my undergraduate degree, I went on to do my Masters.

However, as I was graduating we were hit by a financial crisis in this country which then resulted in many pharmaceutical companies either cutting spending or closing their doors. The following years did not get any better. Every job application was met with a minimum of 6 months to a year work experience. Me being fresh out of university means no experience but I continued to apply anyway. I even applied for work experience only to be told that I lived too far even though I was more than willing to travel. I’ve even applied from a laboratory technician position only to be turned down.

Since then, I’ve had to do some retail jobs to make ends meet. Nothing glamorous and most of them do not pay remotely enough to survive in London even if you work fulltime.

All the work I post on this blog are all taken and edited before or after work or on the weekend. I put all this work in because I love photography. I love creating and most of all I love the feeling I get when I pick up my camera and when I finish an image. I feel excited to share. The feeling of accomplishment I get when I finish a complicated image id like no other. Would I like to do what I love on the daily basis? Ooooh YES!!! Would I love to make some money from it, of course I would and that would be a dream.

However, being told that I should get back to school to get a better job and to earn more money is just not understanding where I’m coming from. Yes, I spend a lot of time on it but that is my choice.

Don’t get me wrong, I work and I am one of those that will even go to work when I’m sick. But I don’t get the same feeling. It is something I have to do in order to pay the bills. I feel like there’s nothing worse than that. The feeling of being trapped and doing only things because you need the money. I’ve work in places where I dread going to and the thought of waking up just makes me depressed and sometimes plain angry and I still do. I would not wish that feeling on anyone. So the idea of spending another ten thousand pounds that I don not have on a degree with no guaranteed outcome does not appeal to me.

I personally do not think that the problem are the studies. The curriculum is not right for the job market that want ready made employees. No one including the NHS is willing to train anyone for these kind of posts. Their priorities are on nurses and doctors and a Microbiologist isn’t just a priority to them.

So the thought of getting loads of money is great but at what cost? My sanity and health are very important to me so until the time I become a millionaire I’m muddling through the best way I know how.

Photography is my passion and I will continue on this path until I’m no longer able to hold a camera or walk. I will create through each image the world I want to see. I hope through my work I can find my purpose and hopefully make some changes on this earth that I am on temporarily.

My analog photography journey ……

For a while now I’ve haven’t had a same feeling I get when I pick up my camera. So I promised myself that I will get more involved with analog.

I have the camera and the film and I just needed to get going. I promised myself that this year, I will put more effort into it.

Getting started was easy but getting tangible results proved a little more problematic and more expensive than I thought.

My first and second were a wash. Out of 35 frames on each roll, I managed to have 10 decent images. That’s discouraged me a little but it wasn’t about to give up.

I then found out that the light meter on the camera wasn’t working properly so I decided to get a light meter app. That didn’t help much probably didn’t because I didn’t have the patience for it.

As a photographer, I’m not a fan of shooting 20frames per second on digital, when the cost of film processing is a lot more than digital, it definitely makes you rethink everything before you press the shutter.

Here are the few images that I’ve been successful with. Although I would have liked better results, the imperfections are what makes me like these images. It’s almost makes you smile to think about the effort put in.

Why I love architectural photography

Escalation

It is no secret that if you have followed me for a while that I love architectural photography. I have created many images of numerous architectural subjects and I’ve come to love and each time I create a new image my pulse literally.

It is the excitement of seeing something new, creating something in my mind and finally see it come to life.

Architecture is part of our daily lives. Each building is designed in a specific way to enrich our lives and our skies. They are all unique and their own hidden depth. My aim is to create something beautiful and extraordinary out of what I see. That is my favourite part of my work.Instead of documenting the subject, my aim for this part is to create something that means that is personal to me. It is about making something my own. My image, my story to tell and for the viewer to interpret it as they will.

We all work a different way. The internet is flooded with millions of images if not billions each day. So do I want to create something to buried in all the noise of something to stand out. When put in that perspective, my way of thinking changes. There’s only one me so why let my work blend in or get buried.

My aim is to push myself with each image and to ask myself each time what I am creating? What am I trying to say?